commissioned by the carriage house quartet for string quartet ca. 7-10'
I feel like I’m spiraling.
what do you mean? what’s got you on the ropes?
I don’t know. I’m just exhausted. I feel like I’m stretched too thin. too much work, not enough hours in the day, you know?
why not just let go?
well, I just can’t. but there has to be a way to manage at this pace, right?
so, you want help maintaining an unsustainable lifestyle…?
well what am I suppose to do? I can’t afford to fall behind.
you can just stop; the world won’t end, I promise.
but my world feels like it will. I just can’t stop.
not even for yourself?
but my work defines me. stoping isn’t saving me.
but you are more than your work, more than your productivity.
but what if I’m not? what will everyone think of me if I let go?
no one who values you for you will think any different of you.
then please, help me learn to let go.
SELFDESTRUCT is an ode to those who are struggling to float in a sea of priorities that leave them last.